RETRACE TUESDAY'S ESCAPE

So long blogger

2010-07-18T21:24:00.001+08:00

So long blogspot.

See you here.

With love

Two weeks later

2010-07-12T20:32:00.009+08:00

So two weeks have passed and hell week is about to come to an end on Wednesday. Really am looking forward to that day for ONE: all my major projects will be submitted, TWO: I'm finally going to see Amos again. Hell yeah \m/ , THREEE: I can finally sleep well and FOUR: PARTY PARTY PARTYYYYYY! Oh yes! Not forgetting it is time to brush up on my studies. Can't afford to fail any. God the thoughts of it scares me. But I know I wont.

I really want to do well and move on to my next 2 years plan. Yes yes, its about time when I finally ask myself what do I really want in my life. Turning 20 aint going to be another t(w)eenager life where all I do is to live under parent's roof, have fun 24/7 with friends and living off a part time job's minimal pay. No! It's time I've to truly ask myself, what do I see myself heading cause I want my life to be of a fruitful one. The picture that I envisioned right now may be blurry due to all the 'what if's consquences. But giving another 1 to 2 years, I should be able to get it clear to myself what I want to see myself in. How am I going to work on this especially when I'm running against the time.

For now...
I am glad I pulled through and am shortlisted for Fairmont Hotel for local internship and Four Seasons in Maldives. Still remember telling Amos and friends how the thoughts of trying to be able to get chosen for overseas internship would be a near to zero chance, seriously. My confidence in even giving it a try was that bleak. Imagine, having to go through total of 7 interviews. Its insanity for someone who never had so many interviews in her life at a short period of time! (If there were going to be another round of interview, I will reallly be sick.) However, I really want to thank everyone who actually encouraged me to go for my dreams.

Maldives has always meant so much to me. Thats the place where my childhood became ever so lively. I never fail to feel so loved by that island. Not forgetting how I always get so excited whenever I get to fly over to find my dad and play by the crystal clear beach, feeding pretty fishes with bread. The starry nights where I would stand by alone gazing the night sky above and lil' crabbies marching sideways (hahaha, never fail to be amused by that) and think to myself how beautiful life is at that point of time. Such fond memories and the great support of tutors and friends, I've decided to give it a go. Go and grab hold of an opportunity that allows me to build my career path in and to start at the island which I had long deemed the love of my life; the island itself. 3 months of working in Maldives, anticipation pumped right into my heart!

Yes I am excited and ready for this! Ready set go! Stepping out of my comfort zone and be there independently. Yes, I've never been out on my own before. My first try, the first start of my own adventure...of work. Woohoo! Surely will miss my love ones and dearly friends. But I must say if not for your words of encouragement and strong support, I wouldnt be able to realize this dream of mine. I am ready to embark on this journey. My stepping stone at the age of 20, I am truly awesome. Fyeeeaaahhz.

#p.s. I really miss you sweetheart. Wednesday, the day I'll be finally back in your arms. 2 days! Loves

oh my love!

2010-06-29T00:00:00.003+08:00

Today's the first day I will not see Amos till the 14th of July. Yes, I is very the sad. I might go crazy. Who knows? Being such a emotional wreck 24/7, crying would be such a norm yet so uncool. Really misses you bad, no more 98765432345 hugs/day. Life ain't that cool anymore. Hahaha. Okay okay, just kidding. My life does not only revolve around this man. My friends and love ones are equally important. LOVE THEM ALL. I swear.

Right now? I've to set my priorities on my studies and only studies now. Thanks to the PEAK period; heavy workload of projects, closely scheduled deadlines and presentations. Oh Lord, have mercy on me even though I know I'm going to miss meeting all this crazy deadlines (HTM LIFE = 10 million deadlines within a short period of time = WE ARE SUPER(WO)MEN) in the near future. Going to be missing school and all.

Talking about my love in army, I wrote him 14 days of stuff for him to read when he's free. Loved the video he made for me too. <3

Time please pass faster kthanksbye

Eminem is the man!

2010-06-23T22:47:00.001+08:00

You Picked Me

2010-06-21T00:52:00.001+08:00

My alpha

2010-06-18T14:57:00.001+08:00

“So it’s not gonna be easy.
It’s going to be really hard;
we’re gonna have to work at this everyday,
but I want to do that because I want you.
I want all of you, forever, everyday.
You and me…”

-The notebook.

2010-06-13T18:56:00.001+08:00

OOOOOOH YEAH \m/
UH MAZ ZING

667th entry - Heart Shaped Box

2010-05-29T13:16:00.003+08:00

Days are passing rather quickly, arent they? I'm about to have my mid-term holidays right after one mid-semester paper. Technically 3 weeks starting on next tuesday. Being a third year student now, I should know it by heart that mid-term holidays aint really holidays afterall. It's always for rushing up with projects and reports. However, i guess there's always an exception where I will always tell myself to have fun (procrastinate) at the same time. Jeez, the last final lap before my internship begins in final year semester. Oh God, please send me your blessings for my chance to fufill a dream of mine. I am sure this chase would not end anytime soon. It will last till the end. I am ready.

Thank you lord, I must! I've learned so much when it comes to loving someone, giving all your heart out to that special one. Knowing that love doesn't come easy, I am ever willing to do all I could to make this relationship a better one. I love you and I always will. Bygones be the past mistakes and selfish acts.

#p.s. Amos, thanks for your always joyous silly funny self and your non-stop reminder for me each and every day. Not forgetting your support for me which means so much more. My you.

I am

2010-05-16T01:03:00.003+08:00

To date.
I havnt felt such sweet comfort from anyone for the longest time.
But you could do it so well, in fact best that I've ever had.
&I love you so.

:)

2010-05-06T09:17:00.001+08:00

&thats none other than you (:

ONCE: Falling Slowly

2010-05-05T01:06:00.001+08:00

The tingling feeling I once had, the excitement, the rush and the sudden come back after so long. I feel new again. (:

FREDDIE MERCURY

2010-04-23T13:00:00.002+08:00

I remember once I decided to spent some time alone, 3 peaceful hours at Esplanade library running through the section of Q and picking out the greatest hits of Queen's album. Reached out for the nearest seat with the disc player to put on the album and there i was, seeking my solace by going through each and every songs. Like a lullaby that would soothe my heart and soul out.

Bedlight for Blue Eyes

2010-04-10T02:39:00.001+08:00

Fool me fool me...

2010-04-10T01:30:00.002+08:00

Sleeping my entire day away and that was how i spent my friday away. So much for TGIF huh. Well, thats how much i 'love' working and getting myself really worn out from the crazy hours of work.....NOT. But thank God, I had a fair share of meeting up with my love ones and friends for dinner/supper. Yes, growing (fatt+happ)ier each day. Holiday is ending once again. Sooner or later, I will graduate from Polytechnic in about one year's time. How fast time flies. I'm already hitting by first big TWO. En route to adulthood!

Anw, I've something to confess here. I've been feeling a lil' down for the lack of communication with you. I say its an infatuation which I hope its going to pass giving it some time for sure. In fact, its been awhile since I actually felt something for someone. I'm silly like that. No worries, its a silent confession

I'm hooked to The Cardigans again. I've always love the meaning behind this song.

Another one of my all time favourite;

Why is the sea so blue?

2010-03-30T15:18:00.002+08:00

Hola, its been so long since I blogged. I dont know why I'm feeling so blueeeee now. Ever since the diving trip, I swear I know where my heart belongs to. Nowhere else but the deep blue sea. I've been wanting to dive and has always thought how cool my dad when it comes to diving. Perhaps the reason is that my childhood life was spent travelling to meet my dad and see him scuba dive and all. No doubt that I feel very privileged to witness that since young and wanting to be like my daddy. (Dad, if you happen to read this, I really am looking up to you, love you dad :))

Now, I finally get to experience what my dad has been doing all this while, his love and passion for diving . No words can describe how thrilled and happy I am to be able to see that happening. Its a dream that finally come true. Till my next diving adventure begins, I'll wait with much excitement which is actually already building up! Call it an obsession or whatever. It's truly my getaway!

Somewhere beyond the sea
Somewhere waitin' for me
My lover stands on golden sand
And watches the ships that go sailin'

Paramore in Singapore

2010-03-10T15:06:00.002+08:00

No one is as lucky as us. We're not at the end but we already won. Oh no, no one is as lucky as us...

In less than 5 years, we'll see you again!

TIM BURTON'S

2010-02-21T14:02:00.002+08:00

Get me this and I will love you forever.

The Only Exception

2010-02-19T00:20:00.004+08:00

Oh god, Versaemerge is hell of a awesome band. But sound kinda like Paramore's hayley here.

So for the past month, Ive been through quite a bit of ups and downs. Crazy rollarcoaster life. Projects and tests drained most of my time away. Sometimes I wonder if its worth wasting my life away to go through all these tests. But whatever, I got it all done and now I'm left with 2 papers. I'm praying hard that I wont repeat any modules. 4.2 no no! Well right now, I could do well for my two papers and it will basically HELP A HELL LOT TO MY GPA. YES YES.

Apart from school, my life aint as cool as it seems. Chinese new year was alright this year. CNY Food are still awesome, no doubt about that. Friends made it happening and I like that.

Recently just had a really bad argument with my closest friend. To think we never actually quarrelled before. Thank God, its over now. Even if i think about it again, the reason why we're both mad at each other is because we do care alot about this friendship of 7 years and going. If you happen to read this, I just want you to know, I will never wanna let this friendship go. You're important to me, in my life...even if you stink.

Alright, im down with a bad headache. Think I caught a flu. Night world.

2010-01-12T22:47:00.001+08:00

Somebody must watch this with me when its released in Singapore, please please please!

Pigeon Detectives, The Fratellis and The Kooks

2010-01-11T01:31:00.002+08:00

Catchy catchy catchy!

I cant help it, but its awesome songs!

that dream...

2010-01-07T15:26:00.002+08:00

I remembered praying and having my moment with God that night before I turned in. Praying that this will be over and I'll find part of my life back to where it belong. All that I prayed to God (which I have a feeling I'm already sleeping in the midst of the prayer), appeared in my dream, within the same night itself. I could feel it so bad that I cant wait to see it in reality. Some might say dreams are usually the opposite of reality. But I choose to see it from another way round. I know I can see it happen if I believe in what I held on so tightly all this while. Nothing can express how much I misses that feeling. Maybe, that is why I could even see it in my dream, I just want it so badly. I told my heart out and hoping one day it will return to me. I will never let it go ever again. It's so crazy, too crazy...

Maybe its just too complicated to comprehend.

Are you still here?

2010-01-06T03:41:00.003+08:00

This string attached on the kite,looking all brittle, breaks and falls apart too easily. With just a tie of a knot,it may be back together, a simple solution indeed. But what if the kite were to be let loose due to the broken string and choose to fly far beyond any reach or hidden away from sight? Would there ever be a chance to see it back as one again?

Just like a machine, what if it loses one part of the mechanical tools, wont it be equivalent to being all dysfunctional? The downside is the time spent waiting has been taking up for so long for a repair. Does that mean it will remain this way forever? Or will the tool reappear and make the machine start work again? In time, we will know.

Looking through the third eye

2010-01-05T23:15:00.003+08:00

Amongst the indifference entangling us, love will always have the way to make us see beyond it.
Down the road may be tough one, but deep inside each of us, we are aware of our stamina which would bring us far with our backbones keeping us standing up and strong as one, vision only towards what is in ahead of us, never looking back. Simply because we cant never get away from each other but to only embrace our bad times and live the next day of a better one. And yes, it will all still come back down to the essential of life , to see through every next day, Love.

2010 (LOVE)

2010-01-01T01:00:00.000+08:00

a7x drummer died

2009-12-29T18:15:00.002+08:00

RIP Rev.
(1981 -2009)

xx

2009-12-24T01:13:00.003+08:00

Looking gross isnt it? Ha! Chocolate Salami (Y)

Birthday boy Amos hits 20.

And yes! My MJ Opus finally arrived. Not only did I expect it to be heavy, I didnt expect it to be such a HUGE ONE AS WELL. BUT I LOVE IT! Really worth waiting for.

Band Of Skulls - Friends

2009-12-22T14:16:00.001+08:00

Yeah my friends, they are so beautiful!

REBELLION (LIES)

2009-12-20T15:02:00.003+08:00

Arcade Fire FTW!

Grizzly Bear!

#p.s. In this video, their eyes are really scary. But their songs are amazing.

The Darling Buds - Get Your Guns

2009-12-19T02:47:00.005+08:00

Love love love his voice in this song.
Can't find the lyrics so I figured some part myself but there are parts where he's like rushing through (in a nice way with great tunes, of course). One of my favourite song now.(Y)

I've got a message
and theres no time to lose
so listen closely
tonight we'll find out the truth
lets do this quickly
take the money and run
my car is waiting
we are still sheltered from sun

get your guns
our time is up
come on
cus now its time to run
we gotta make it out tonight

girl keep your head up
we still got miles to go
we're led by starlight through
through rain and the snow
the spell is broken
as the night angel cries
i hear it coming
i see the white anger eyes

get your guns
our time is up
come on
cus now its time to run
we gotta make it out tonight {x2}

everything seems to fall into place
let me put your head down .....
Give your trust and put your heart in my hand
....

I feel like I can breathe
you need to open your eyes to see the beautiful sunrise
dont be scared if you just an experiment
never gonna let them take the life

Get your guns
Our time is up
come on
cus now its time to run
we got to make it out tonight
[x2]

p.s. Okay seriously I doubted heavily on the accuracy of the lyrics. Cus I was found figuring it at 3 in the morning. X

Eternity

2009-12-16T13:21:00.001+08:00

X'MASSY

2009-12-12T20:57:00.004+08:00

A great cup of hot drink accompanied with a book and a comfy couch is all it takes to truly enjoy.

Off to enjoy a hot tea pot of Jour De Fete.
I like it~

Home

2009-12-10T12:52:00.003+08:00

Home,
where my comfort zone lies.
Where I seek solace and warmth from within
Where mum's cooked food never taste bad
but of love.

2009-12-09T00:29:00.006+08:00

Thanks to Twitter. My blog is rather dead most of the time. Or simply put, my paragraphs of daily happenings have shrunk to a 160 characters limit status update which is bad because I'm too lazy to write much these days.

For the past month of November, I've been down on assignments and test. Apart from that, its work and celebrations of birthdays (incl. mine which was amazing!) Now that December, the last month of the year is here, it's time to celebrate the most fun time of the year, Christmas!
Thank god, i've only an accounting paper to take which has ended just yesterday. So my short mid-term break has finally begun. Have to plan my holiday properly for camp, projects and GIFTS FOR X'MAS :D I am so anticipating on the Opus, especially since I've been waiting for nearly 3 months. It is said to arrive before Christmas. So I hope it will arrive soon!

Random Thoughts
#1:
I seem to have issues with meeting ups.
I'm sorry people.
I suck.
#2:
4 647769237843.
#3:
I just remembered something which I miss doing so.

EITS <3

2009-12-07T14:00:00.002+08:00

Explosion In The Sky is amazing..

Dig

2009-12-05T10:22:00.001+08:00

?

2009-12-03T17:35:00.004+08:00

'Seriously whats going on now?
I've seem to miss out a lot of things.
I totally don't get it at all.
What is my life coming in to?'

'Can't I just have that normality that I want?

It's time I go figure and find out more.
Now I'm really scared

Bad romance much?

2009-11-22T02:44:00.003+08:00

I chose to not cross the line.
But what if the line just got a little blurry?
Would I have crossed over subconciously?

Mad World

2009-11-17T11:42:00.002+08:00

Let me out,will you?

Let me do some fun before I have to face you again.

Escapist, I am

Running from you, yes I am!

Yes you, urgh-sigh-ments

aint my friend, no.

(I'm going mad. Period.)

Sicko 9teeen

2009-11-06T18:20:00.003+08:00

NOW THAT IM 19, MY LIFE WOULD BE.....
AWESOMER EACH DAY.
WORD!
.
.
.
.
TIL I HIT THE BIG 2
AND MY LIFE THEN WOULD BE....

Yesterday celebration was awesome. Spent my birthday with my new groupmates and really love the food from Jones and B&J @ Dempsey Hill which made us felt like we're having holidays yet again. Awesome awesome awesome! Thanks for the lil surprise of ice cream. You know I can't help but say.."I LIKE IT"!

And the lil cousins of mine, thanks for the cards you all drew for me. It's so cute! Nothing beats hand made cards. LOVE!

Start of school

2009-10-26T21:24:00.004+08:00

So school has pretty much started since last week and today which was actually my second day at Tourism Academy Sentosa. I'm starting to get really sick of the travelling to school. journey. It's so far and facing the peak hour crowd in train. It's really energy draining despite such great school environment. Thats if I stay nearer but no. Not only that, my expenses are really high nowadays. Oh god, all the lunch at vivo (trust me the food in sentosa is rather pricey and it sucks big time! Pfft! All the boutiques that I'd die to get my hands on those clothes...rah!

Spooktacular was pretty fun but tiring for me as I had Culi before it. It's pretty spooky and my Havaianas broke which caused my moody feeling which ended up not as scary for me. Thank God puffy helped me to fix it back. It was a crazy night for all of us as we went in such a big group and eventually made "friends" with the wandering ghosts! BOX BOX! HAHAHA whose father was Raffles and is the Ancestor of the kuaytupat man. And that weird chinese bride that kept going around pointing and saying "you. you. you" which puzzled most of us like, yes what?!
I think we made fun of them way too much but yet its so fun, the oil man did scared me for awhile. Cause he looks really creepy, seriously. Overall, it was a good experience and we were out the entire night which I nearly died cause I did not get to sleep for one full day. Killer.. But enjoy the night with my old pals of Year 1. LOVE

And now, I shall catch up with my GG and head to bed for tomorrow's hardcore lectures day. Goodnight world.

Sophia

2009-10-22T03:35:00.000+08:00

*&^%$#$%$^

2009-10-19T00:21:00.004+08:00

& today I seem to have absolute zero courage to tell you what I've been wanting to get it out of me,
guess it no longer matters anymore. ~~imy,bt it dsnt mtr 2u anw~~

What have I become

2009-10-18T23:37:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I really do hate myself as a person, feeling all bothered about it. I mean yes, nobody is ever flawless as a whole. But there would be times when you would just hate the guts out of yourself for doing something so detestable that you're so convinced, you even assured yourself; "I'd definitely not be like this! How can anyone tolerate such kind of dreadful behaviour ". Having said that, I was hitting back at myself with stones, eating my own words. Is this human nature? I ask when it could be so avoidable IF I really stick by the principle of good conduct. But NO! I chose to led my inner self be led astray and take the bad bite. What should I do next? I just felt so pissed till I wanna just cry out loud like a 3 years old who does not care of being such a public irritant. THOU SHALT REFLECT !

x

2009-10-17T03:27:00.003+08:00

Missing, gone, absence, for quite awhile.
I presumed much.
Not a word, a voice, a sound, an answer or single hint dropped by.
Clueless has been hanging much lately.
Wondering stood by once in awhile.
Still lacks the findings of a response, a clue, a reply.
Lost with no further directions leading a way.
Time is running and is coming near to the very last day, hour, min, seconds.

Till then,
it'll still be unknown.

:(

2009-10-14T20:45:00.001+08:00

Feel like crap now.
i is lika a pregnant ladeyyy.
pfft!

(500)

2009-10-12T18:19:00.004+08:00

500 Days of Summer is awesome and is my current favourite ever since PS I Love You.
Love how the story is not of the usual kind of romance comedy that I've watched.
& like what the narrator in the movie said "This is not a love story"; indeed.

2009-10-06T12:35:00.002+08:00

Should I ?
Should I not?
Should I ?
Should I not?
Should I ?
Should I not?
Should I ?
Should I not?
Should I ?
Should I not?
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
But when there is a opportunity smack right at your face. Why not right?
Very tempting yet to go through it all again?
Daymmmmnnn.
Who cares!
GO!

W-H-Y-B?

Through the rain..

2009-10-02T16:30:00.007+08:00

Fell in love with this song since like forever.
I remember how I'll always listen to this back in the old days when it just released.
Love how it sounds with such meaningful lyrics.

It's 4 LOVE. L-O-V-E.

2009-10-02T02:05:00.002+08:00

yay!
Simply can't wait.
Ilu.

MORNING TO THE WORLD

2009-10-01T06:53:00.006+08:00

It's 7a.m.
Though I'd love to go have my breakfast.
(Prata!)
So damn tempting, it is.
Guess I need to sleep first.

UNEXPECTED

2009-09-28T01:29:00.002+08:00

Clueless.

Unexpected.

Unsure.

Confused.

What went wrong?

Where have I been?

Why?

What?

Whats going on?

Worried.

Fuck.

Stupid.

I am.

Problem?

Who's?

What?

Dropped.

Off...

BIRF-DAYES

2009-09-28T00:55:00.006+08:00

Yesterday was of much love and fun! It's been such a long time since I last saw them all. Misses all of them so much (Jeraine, Puffy, Nat, Chester, BW and WT). Really happy Jeraine likes the gift WT and I bought for her. Yay! Hahaha. Oh and I enjoyed every single segment the others made. So much fun and laughter. Kisses touching lips against cheeks, countless of huggings and outflow of thankyou-&-lovely wishings, speeches and stories were shared. Sure enjoyed myself despite how drained I was before that due to work. Slam slam slam...at wrong timings.

After that, I went back to tcc to meet the rest and help them with the closing and all. Suddenly miss all the old times we had. So busy but with so many people working together, the bond and all. Now we're so short-handed, sucking out dry of the energy in each and our living souls. Blah. Apart from that, came back to celebrate Alison's birthday. A mini surprise for her indeed. But its lovely nonetheless and the ice cream @ Swensen's. Sweeeet~ :D

I totally enjoyed myself. I am happy.

#p.s. J, I'm so sorry for not putting up a segment for you. My bad.

#p.p.s. Sorry for my ugly handwritten letter to you, J.

OKAY OKAY!

2009-09-24T02:54:00.002+08:00

Wanted to make a list of what I want before I forget again.
1. Canon camera
2. Vans shoes
3. Bag
4. Wallet
5. More clottheess
6. Money to go overseas

i better start doing so!

2009-09-22T04:44:00.000+08:00

Went through history of photos. Found back the motivation to.....
I HAVE TO! I HAVE TO!

Key word: GO BACK!

BITCH! BITCH! BITCH!!!!

2009-09-19T02:28:00.002+08:00

Never was I ever this mad over problems with guests but YOU!
Thinking that being ignorant to the notification specifically, mentioned right in your fucking face, you chose to pretend that you totally dont know that you not allowed to do any forms of study. TO ADD TO THIS, YOU KNEW THIS ALL THE TIME SINCE YOU & YOUR OH-SO-FREQUENTLY-PATRONIZING-RESTAURANT-FRIEND ALWAYS COME TO STUDY HERE. (&tell me, how many forms of study can you do at a cafe restaurant? Books? Pen? Notes? Isnt it obvious?)

Thought by your age, you would have a decent working mind to know it by the way we do things. But you chose to be such a unreasonable bitch, ignoring ever single reminders we personally MADE AND TOLD TO YOUR FUCKING FACE. Pretending oh we dont know since you fellow colleague didnt mention it clearly. I SAY FUCK YOU. You knew and you chose to ignore it. We dont care about whether you have drinks or not, you just simply refused to heed words to just NOT STUDY. Simple as that!

Seriously that two glasses of drinks doesnt mean you are V.I.P. or maybe just very ignorant and imbecile person you are! We dont need those kind of money. And we rather be free of crowd to have you sitting around. NEver did it matter, you rolled-eyed-at-my-SM-bitch. Childish is your middle name I swear. Fancy being all cool trying to scribble down all kinds of new acronyms along with ours. You know what? Its bad and horrible. Leaving it on the table for us to laugh at you.

Thanks for that by the way. It was very kindly of you to personally come forward, showing your arrogant face (which just wants some slapping prints on) and to inform that you are leaving and those the crowd aint here yet. We dont need this nonsense you 12 years old mentality leveled bitch. And we LOVE to see you leaving. EVER SO HAPPY TOO.

RAWR!!
Sorry guys, I needed to rant. RAH!

This Is It!

2009-09-16T01:28:00.003+08:00

JAMES AW @ 21

2009-09-14T02:57:00.001+08:00

Work work workaholic is my new name.

Celebrated James's 21st birthday party in advance. Sure is a nice place when he showed us around and the food was awesome. He was indeed a great host. Had much fun with Kel and Winnie too. Been a pleasant evening with them. Would love to hang out with them all more often :)

Last night I was indeed worn out, dozed off from 9 plus at night. I could barely look at the laptop without my eyes shutting like every few seconds. And the next thing I know, I woke up at 1 pm and had to come in work earlier..OT again~

:(

2009-09-12T03:02:00.000+08:00

Can't help but the hunger tends to growl at the strike of midnight.
Body clock and eating timing are way screwed than those who are fasting right now.
Upon getting home from a cab, my motion sickness loves to get in the way.
Leaving me with nausea that knocks me in and out.
I ate and regurgitation followed up.
When will this feeling ever stops :(
&perhaps, some lovin' will be the aid.

I miss you...

Framing Hanley

2009-09-08T04:37:00.000+08:00

This is a multiple random thoughts post

2009-09-07T02:48:00.002+08:00

As each night time passes by,
the only thing that comes into my mind
is of nothingness.
The only times I could spent
having quiet thoughts
of how great it would be
if life is all like doing a happy dance.

Right now, just chilling, listening to music and thinking hard to fill in an answer that I'd like to find and to make believe.

"Wherever you may be..
I'll look up at see,
someone in the dark for me."

The night the angel fly

2009-09-05T03:25:00.000+08:00

That dream that I had last night felt so surreal.
I could remember the candles lit so beautifully,
held within my hands,
watching as the angel has finally spread his wings
and slowly flying away from us.
That dream lasted so short, as I could remember
,yet came with a heavy heart.
But now I know, he shall finally laid to rest and peace....

WILD WILD WET!

2009-09-04T02:16:00.002+08:00

Had so much fun under the hot sun. It was my first time heading to wild wild wet and really missed such fun. Love the thrills, especially the part where we slide down, its like free fall of 3 seconds. My heart felt like it dropped, but its the thrill im seeking. Oh and the lazy river....so great to just....be lazy~ Definitely enjoyed the company much! Shall do this again! Someday!

In peace you shall rest, mj

2009-09-04T01:49:00.003+08:00

So long my darling
my ever-so-shiny star,
let go, let free,
fly up high to where you truly belong.
Embracing love in the arms of God,
singing in your angelic voice with the choir of angels.
Move the heaven,
Tremble the earth,
For your music is simply incredible.

&maybe someday,
I'll see you again
hearing that familiar music,
so remarkably known as yours,
that familiar voice that I'll remember
somehow, somewhere,
which I've lost down the road.
For now, music stands alone.
Or perhaps, gone along with you.
And leave a piece of melody behind.....

Will be missed and loved

Baybeats 09

2009-08-31T15:42:00.000+08:00

Baybeats last night was awesome. Madness uproar. Anberlin's acoustic and live was really good. They played Feel Good Drag, The Unwinding Cable Car, Paperthin Hymn, Adelaide and Breaking! Bump into my secondary mates and did some catching up at simpang for supper. In fact met alot of familiar people all over Esplanade. Miss so many people! Old times are always fun to reminisce.

REJOICE FOR KING OF POP

2009-08-29T03:30:00.002+08:00

He's the man
who dreamt to be none other than Peter Pan,
taught the world how to love
through his beautiful genius work of music,
with his passion to sore into the sky,
his ever-willingness to stand
and lend a helping hand.

The fire that burns deep down in his soul
whichever path he choose to go.
Never did he ever been put to a stop,
even if the lies turned into truth or what's not.

He knew he has what it takes
to make a change
like the man in the mirror,
Sending the message across the world
making it clearer
to live as brothers
and one big family.

Though he's somewhere far away,
his music will always be here to stay
During the daytime and the nighttime
And close in all of our hearts.

Happy 51st MJ.

Love you more; M

CUTE VID

2009-08-28T02:45:00.000+08:00

I IS HAPPY NOWZ

2009-08-27T14:52:00.000+08:00

EXAMS HAS COME TO AN END, SO IS THE FIRST SEMESTER OF YEAR 2.
TIME PASSES RATHER TOO QUICKLY, I MUST SAY.
DONT YOU ALL THINK SO?
LIKE SSM USED TO BE EVERY SINGLE THURSDAY (DREAD WAKING UP THAT EARLY)
BUT NOW, HOLIDAY IS HERE TO KICK SOME ASS TO GET SOME FUN.
HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE :D

...AND JUST GOTTEN THE SENTOSA CARD FOR NEXT SEMESTER.
GOODBYE TP, HELLO SENTOSA :D

okay bye *Rush to work*

The One In The Mirror

2009-08-15T22:11:00.000+08:00

I wanted to change the world, so I got up one morning and looked in the mirror. That one looking back said: "There is not much time left. The earth is wracked with pain. Children are starving. Nations remain divided by mistrust and hatred. Everywhere the air and water have been fouled almost beyond help. Do something!" That one in the mirror felt very angry and desperate. Everything looked like a mess, a tragedy, a disaster. I decided he must be right. Didn't I feel terrible about these things, too, just like him? The planet was being used up and thrown away.

Imagining earthly life just one generation from now made me feel panicky. It was not hard to find the good people who wanted to solve the earth's problems. As I listened to their solutions, I thought, There is so much good will here, so much concern. At night before going to bed, that one in the mirror looked back at me seriously, Now we'll get somewhere, he declared. If everybody does their part. But everybody didn't do their part. Some did, but were they stopping the tide? Were pain, starvation, hatred, and pollution about to be solved? Wishing wouldn't make it so - I knew that. When I woke up the next morning, that one in the mirror looked confused. Maybe it's hopeless, he whispered... Then a sly look came into his eyes, and he shrugged. But you and I will survive. At least we are doing all right. I felt strange when he said that. There was something very wrong here. A faint suspicion came to me, one that had never dawned so clearly before.

What if that one in the mirror isn't me? He feels separate. He sees problems - out there - to be solved. Maybe they will be, maybe they won't. He'll get along. But I don't feel that way - those problems aren't out there, not really. I feel them inside me. A child crying in Ethiopia, a sea gull struggling pathetically in an oil spill, a mountain gorilla being mercilessly hunted, a teenage soldier trembling with terror when he hears the planes fly over. Aren't these happening in me when I see and hear about them? The next time I looked in the mirror, that one looking back had started to fade. It was only an image after all. It showed me a solitary person enclosed in a neat package of skin and bones. "Did I once think you were me?" I began to wonder. I am not so separate and afraid. The pain of life touches me, but the joy of life is so much stronger. And it alone will heal.

Life is the healer of life, and the most I can do for the earth is to be its loving child. That one in the mirror winced and squirmed. He hadn't thought so much about love. Seeing problems was much easier, because love means complete self-honesty. Ouch! Oh, friend, I whispered to him, do you think anything can solve problems without love? That one in the mirror wasn't sure. Being alone for so long, not trusting others and being trusted by others, it tended to detach itself from the reality of life.

"Is love more real than pain?" he asked. "I can't promise that it is. But it might be. Let's discover", I said. I touched the mirror with a grin. "Let's not be alone again. Will you be my partner? I hear a dance starting up. Come". That one in the mirror smiled shyly. He was realizing we could be best friends. We could be more peaceful, more loving, more honest with each other every day. "Would that change the world?" I think it will, because Mother Earth wants us to be happy and to love her as we tend her needs. She needs fearless people on her side, whose courage comes from being part of her, like a baby who is brave enough to walk because Mother is holding out her arms to catch him.

When that one in the mirror is full of love for me and for him, there is no room for fear. When we were afraid and panicky, we stopped loving this life of ours and this earth. We disconnected. Yet how can anybody rush to help the earth if they feel disconnected? Perhaps the earth is telling us what she wants, and by not listening, we fall back on our own fear and panic. One thing I know: I never feel alone when I am earth's child. I do not have to cling to my personal survival as long as I realize, day by day, that all of life is in me. The children and their pain; the children and their joy. The ocean swelling under the sun; the ocean weeping with black oil. The animals hunted in fear; the animals bursting with the sheer joy of being alive. This sense of - the world in me - is how I always want to feel. That one in the mirror has his doubts sometimes. So I am tender with him. Every morning I touch the mirror and whisper, Oh, friend, I hear a dance. Will you be my partner? Come.

-mj

2009-08-13T20:38:00.001+08:00

So today marks the end of SSM. Indeed, time flies so fast. Right where we stand now, looking back at the other end of the road we once started from...

Waking up at such unearthly hours on every Thursday to do up our hard-as-rock-hairdo.
Frustration over the stubborn stands of hair which never fails to sit in still.
Crossing fingers, praying that our grooming will pass. (Or perhaps praying that our tutors' eyes aint that sharp)
The "fun" of screwing up and all sorts of enjoyment we gained out of it as a team.
The stress and panic attacks that fed our hunger which caused us much discomfort.
Still we made it through.
Draining all of our energies which never fail to make me return home dropping dead on bed till the next morning.
All these lil' (hard time)memories, I shall hold on to it dearly and move on in life along with this experience I took from SSM.
To my fellow team mates, I still love you. We ROCK(HARD)!\m/

Now, I am happy.
Finally got my hair cut. Next thing I shall do is to highlight. Fun fun fun.

If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...

FUN IN THE SUN

2009-08-10T23:46:00.004+08:00

Had so much fun at Sentosa with G and friends today which was filled with madness. Took the sky and luge rides which were awesomeee. Next thing I came to realise was that I lost my pair of shades. So I went to approach a staff to report about the loss of my shades, next thing I know was a guy who walked pass me wearing a pair that seemed to be mine. Next thing I knew when he turned, no doubt he was wearing my shades. "Oh your's ah? I was wearing all this time sial." I was like wtf? How could you just randomly pick up someone's sunglasses to put it on man. But whatever it is, i thank God I managed to find it back as it was dear to me.

Apart from that, Sentosa today was so crowded! Flooded with soooo many people who were also seeking some fun under the sun. No doubt, today was good. Hope I can have as much fun in the holidays once I get the exams done and over with.

Happiness ,
the expression of one's emotion
Loveliness,
the essence of one's beauty
Compassion
the awareness of one's heart feelings
Pain & Sorrow
the anguish of one's suffering
Loneliness
the emptiness of one's heart

=Mj.

HA HA HA HA

2009-08-05T01:43:00.003+08:00

Oh boy! Oh boy! Never laughed so hard till today.
My mispronouncing of Sunshine as sun-sine was an expense of their laughter.

Me: *sigh* Talented people die young..
Jeraine: ohmygod! I don't wanna die young!

Wathann and Nat: W likes older women as studies have shown older women's image last longer in a guy's mind"
Me: Since u think jeraine is older, I'm sure she's in your mind longer too.

Nat: "What's a G spot?!"
Wathann: "Good spot, its like a good spot."
Nat:"Oh you mean like a location?!"

At KFC;
Jeraine was so funny, her love for children and wanting to bring them home. And she named them in colours of their shirts, "Oh a blue one, white one, yellow one, pink one...etc." WT literally shout to Jeraine to ask her collect her change which embarassed her was rather funny.

OH OH. SHE LOVES HAIRY MAN:)

OKAY GOODNIGHT!

TASTE

2009-08-03T16:11:00.002+08:00

FREEE~ FINALLY~! NO MORE ASSIGNMENTS.
Now I am left with presentation and project execution.
Oh boy! Oh boy!
3 exams paper and I'm fucking done with this semester.
And and and I'm FREE~~~!
As each day pass, it would mean a day nearer to holidays.~
So cant wait. :D

Brilliant!

2009-08-02T03:23:00.000+08:00

Saw the trailer of Alice in Wonderland which I so cant wait to set my eyes on to another Tim Burton's brillant work of art . Without any fail or disappointment, he will always have Johnny Depp staring as one of the most crucial role. These two will always makes me go all excited ever since the release of Nightmare Before Christmas. BRILLIANT, I SAY! (LOVE IT! LOVE IT!)

HIGH HIGH!

2009-08-01T03:21:00.000+08:00

RED BULL MAKES YOU GO HIGH EVEN IN AN UNEARTHLY HOUR OF THE NIGHT.
CAN YOU FEEL IT? CAN YOU FEEL IT? CAN YOU FEEEEEEEL IT????
OOOO...

3:21am

& I still miss you here

2009-07-26T22:12:00.000+08:00

Alright, God was kind enough and must've heard my prayers so this time, my weekend was not that bad. Hahaha. In fact, I enjoyed it. Got to watch The Hangover which was fucking hilarious. Work was crazy from day to night. And today, I finally got to meet my friends after such a long time for potluck at Gen's place. It was awesome. The food and the oreo cheesecake I bought. Omg. I wish I can buy both oreo cheesecake and the new york cheesecake man. Its sooooo gooood yet sinful. Dang!

Today marks a month since MJ's death. You're still being missed by half of the world.

Love Love Isnt Fair

2009-07-22T18:49:00.002+08:00

Hell knows what went wrong with my blogger, cant seem to load up my new post screen.
Anyhoo, my life is a weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee bit better, yes yes. But never felt so fucked up during a pst. Tests are all coming up now and right after that it would examsss. (ROAR! &^#^&*%$&^&*)

Watched Harry Potter and finally got to meet up with G after so longgg. Harry Potter was quite a disappointment though, wasnt up to my expectation. Only love how they mourn for Dumbledore's death (but really sad to watch dumbledore dies), was rather cool. Haha.

Met Nat for dinner back in Tampines. &thats the part when Nat goes mad. Got to find out that her approach of de-stressing was rather......*no comments* In her defence, she claimed that happen when her brain doesnt work right. Hahahah. After dinner we headed down to Reliez chalet. Was good to see all everyone. Really makes me miss FO so much. didnt get to stay long as I was rather tired and had work the next day. So yeah, looking forward for more outings....AFTER all the exams. Cant wait. :D

2009-07-16T23:51:00.003+08:00

SO, I wonder, when can I ever have a proper rest? All thanks to projects thats taking up so much time. Havnt been updating, thats for sure. Been awhile since I hang out with my good friends and misses. Havnt seen G for ages too! Once I get over tomorrow, I'm sure I'll have more time then, hopefully. Miss miss miss.

On a lighter note, Reliez's chalet coming up. Cant wait to see everyone again :)

On a uber heavy note, tests are coming upppppp, wtfffffffff.... :/

This is killing me! *&^%$#@#$%^&

...

So It Is True

2009-07-08T10:42:00.002+08:00

Like what Queen Latifah has said in the memorial service; "Today we know that we know nothing.." which really made me think hard. I remember how Michael would always shower the world with his never ending love and care, his passion that drives him to go beyond his limit to save children from all over the world and breaking through racial barriers with his songs that meant alot to the world. How can anyone not love this man who once taught us so much. Not forgetting his undying love for children and strong belief in the innocence of children which makes him want to be showing love thats God-like, that pure.

Looking at his baby girl really just proven that, speaking to thousands live with an extremely heavy heart. Her first few words she has ever spoken to the world, moved everyone of us who were watching. Reason is simply because her words are from the bottom of her heart and like how MJ always say children never lies which is true. No other one could move the world like her, simply hearing the words from her own daughter is nothing but the truth.

Nonetheless, he will always be a true inspiration to all of the human kinds in this world. His songs are what that will drive me to live with a better purpose & hope. I love you Michael, may God bless your soul, your family and your 3 lovely children. Amen.

2009-07-05T21:57:00.002+08:00

The feeling of wanting to just walk back home in the rain is indeed therapeutic. Tear-like rain tapping against your skin and slowly soaking your hair wet is no other like bathing, but better. MJ's songs playing in my Ipod playlist, listening and relieving my soul with all the rhythmic beatings, heart-felt words that has deep meanings to share and sang in rhymes. How can I or anyone not feel any better? Tears do form, rolling down my cheeks uncontrollably, wrenching my heart with the absence of you in this world. Your music is what that keeps me going and will always be in the past, present and the future. ily.

"Whatever I sing, thats what I really mean what'd like to be singing in the song. I dont sing if i dont mean it"
- mj

August 28th 3:30AM

2009-07-01T01:19:00.004+08:00

& tonight, the moon is like half of an oreo cookie.
:D

We strip each others beauty and we push it to the end
we face each other smiling and leave it all unsaid

RIP MJ

2009-06-26T20:52:00.002+08:00

R.I.P Michael Jackson
You will always be remembered and loved.

Staring at the sun

2009-06-26T00:24:00.000+08:00

Today was great.
:)

.

2009-06-24T12:38:00.002+08:00

nothing seems to go well.
argh.

whyyyyyyyy?

.

2009-06-24T12:38:00.001+08:00

what?

GO MAISIE!

2009-06-21T21:58:00.003+08:00

Plucked up some courage and did something I should've done long time.
Now, nothing remains to remind.
Nothing to ever put me down again.
Nothing to make me all emotional.
Nothing no more.
&nothing to stop me from feeling awesome like this.
I deserve better.
:)

(lesser than-slash-three)

CHOCOLATE OVERDOSE

2009-06-21T02:08:00.004+08:00

Had Brotzeit and Max Brenner, its uber awesome and great company never fails to make the night just so fun. Yay :)

#p.s. sunflower oil, chocolate balls, electricity, trying to cross the road when its green (twice). oh dear oh dear.

Fun filled friday

2009-06-13T20:40:00.002+08:00

Let no heavy thoughts ever sink in now.

FML

2009-06-10T03:05:00.001+08:00

" Today, at exactly midnight, I get a text from my boyfriend saying we were done. I had just seen him 4 hours ago when we were out celebrating my birthday, and asked why he didnt just tell me then. He replies 'I couldn't break up with you on your birthday but i wanted it to be over ASAP' FML "

Hmmmm......fucked up man.

Rock N' Roll Aint Noise Pollution

2009-06-09T01:29:00.004+08:00

Spit Lyrics; Catherine is the shit

2009-06-07T14:39:00.001+08:00

"I'm hot like a gangster fresh out the pan."

Bloody night

2009-06-06T12:11:00.003+08:00

Had a great meal at Thai Express with family and headed town to meet G. We didnt plan to have a bloody time together. What we did for the night was, we watch Blood (which was very bloody but not a very bloody awesome movie) and played L4D which was similar to Blood where there is alot of attacking on zombies and demons. It was really fun, I say though we only spent such a bloody short time.

Blink 182

2009-06-04T13:03:00.001+08:00

I wantz monuments & melodies!

"Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there"

O M G

2009-06-03T23:54:00.001+08:00

I swear, I've a friend who lives a house that has almost what you see in an arcade/lan shop. WOW WOW WEE! 6 hours spent on Guitar hero and rock band, now lets L4D!

DREAMS

2009-06-03T02:16:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, I had a nightmare....dreams...I dont know whether I should describe the dream I had as scary or feeling all real. I remember seeing you and everyone that I mostly spent with in my life and next...I feel...I cant describe and I doubt I ever can. Its near weird but yet good if its true. Sometimes I find myself having a sense that tells me things and it turn out real? I dont know until I feel it. Okay ignore.

Why dont you say so?

2009-06-02T00:10:00.004+08:00

" I know, I know, I know there is a place for me somewhere, out there..."

Holidays are here again, realising the amount of work that I've to complete much. Wonder where should I actually start from. Ha. I've no idea why these days I get so tired easily, especially in the middle of the night (which can be a good and bad thing). If only projects doesnt put me off. Argh!
I am missing the fun.

Lighter note, Stephy's bdae went well. Surprised her with cake and had so much fun at night though the cocktail suck so bad.

#p.s. darling, no more self-deceiving/denial. You know you aint going to get far with this. Its better to end it and endure the slight torment here and there. So what about feelings? You know once the rain is over, you'll be all fine and ready to get your heart going again. I know you know that. Its that hell of a moment that would get you through, you'll wake up and feel better somehow.

BUSY BUZZ

2009-05-27T21:14:00.003+08:00

This week has been really busy and driving me nuts. I cant wait for term break to come to get a breather. It's pretty exhausting. But still managing..Today was funny. I came across a few familiar but different scent I recalled a person I know used. But whatever. Hahaha. Anyway we had a pre-celebration for Steph and its pretty fun. The balloon hung on our backpacks and hands. It's funny because we look like a troop with balloon floating together.

Oh and my very first presentation with my Group :)

<3>

DISAPPOINTMENT WITHIN SELF

2009-05-21T22:46:00.002+08:00

Sorry to all whom has had faith in me.
I failed bad.
I've let everyone, the tutors who had helped me so much and even myself down.
Today was a letdown. But I still have that lil hope there that we will do well. I am sure.
I'd like to thank those who were there to encourage me and Hakim for buying me a meal to make myself happier ( which made us even..NOT, STILL!)

On a lighter note, thou I didnt get to try the profiteroles at Top Table, but had it at bakerzin's. Freaking awesome! Its big and the premium vanilla ice cream = Yummy! :)

Happening happens

2009-05-18T19:34:00.003+08:00

May has been a busy busy busy period for me. Yes its all about birthdays, projects, work and tests to follow up on. It's pretty fun and I really do enjoy it a whole lot. It is times like this that make hours pass in seconds. On a heavier note, I was appointed as a headwaitress for Top Table for this week, could remember vividly how everyone stared at me in awe and probably feeling the impending doom for me. Whatever it is, I shall put on for this battle and strike it hard! Go me! Ha! Oh mum is funny..

(A photo of natalie and I)
Mum: Oh, who's this girl (pointing to nat), she is pretty.
I: Yeah, she sure is :)
Mum: Oh this girl (pointing to me) looks pretty too. Who's she?
I: MUM? ITS ME LIKE HELLO? HOW CAN U NOT KNOW WHO'S YOUR DAUGHTER. OH GOD.
Mum: (started laughing so loud) Omg.
I: -.-"

On a lighter note;
finally we get to meet up as a whole again. Sure miss all the secondary school days. &now, 2 years have passed. Times are so different from then. Everyone is now 19, final teenage year. Oh boy...Angels and Demons is really good

change?
no, not you.
bad, yes.

ELECTIONS!

2009-05-16T10:55:00.002+08:00

VOTE FOR THEM :)

Well, she's a good liar

2009-05-09T22:14:00.001+08:00

Lets get this going!